Not So Scary Stories

It took me awhile to understand this, years even, how people use others for their advantage. Lying, stealing, hurting etc. it’s all the same. It’s all a way to justify using people and having them under your thumb. As I continue to grow and realize these subtle, but very important things, I realize how I never want to be like that, how I never want to use people to get what I want. But in the realization of this it puts me in the place of power to do that, so I’m starting to wonder what’s worse; the person who uses the other people or the people who know they’ll be used and allow it to happen? Leader or follower? Not to justify my own actions but simply a longtime philosophical question that remains questionable to this day. All in all, I like where life has taken me thus far, I’m fairly intelligent if I do say so myself and I am able to filter out peoples’ bullshit well enough to remain sane!

…no man has got it made, if he thinks he does he’s wrong”

As I continue to grow up I realize “fun” doesn’t come from the activities in which I enjoy but rather the people I enjoy them with. It isn’t as wonderful if your favorite sports team wins something as long as you can’t share the excitement with someone else. I’ve learned that to have fun you have to enjoy the company you’re around more than the activity itself. While it seems simple and very easy to understand it only hits me in times where I actually realize I’m enjoying the people I’m with instead of the things we’re doing (which rarely happens to me but has been happening more recently). Hopefully I’ll continue my trend of having good times and enjoying the stories people have to share with me. Who knows? 

Hopefully road triping to one of my favorite places, the beach, tonight. Last time I was there I realized how nothing is perminate much like the foot prints in the soft sand. Sometimes harder the sand keeps prints longer and gives hope that it will always remain only to take them away in the long run. Constantly changing the world is and the ocean and beach are real time examples of this, possibly it’s “God’s” way of showing us things through nature and beauty. With this idea and concept I will leave you to ponder your own real life examples that show lack of perminence.

Often times I ponder why people act as if others can’t see through their lies like a clear glass of water. Why do people insist that they’re out to better themselves yet make the same mistakes, often trivial mind you but nonetheless the same mistakes? How does one try to insist that their life is worth living even though it is often a big lie? Why act as if you want something, or rather imply it, when you never truly act on it? That’s my thoughts as of right now and I don’t think I will ever understand how people continue to let themselves down with their lies and justifications.

As most do, I [used to] sit and wonder about life, my purpose and when it’ll come to it’s inevitable and screeching halt. But within the past months I’ve come to the realization that those thoughts are merely waste of time; my purpose will eventually be understood in due time and you can never know when you life will come to its end. Unlike Jonathan Edwards, who said “if all we’ve lost is time, I’ll try it”, I can’t sit idly by and waste time. We all know time is limited (obviously objectively to how one spends time but limited universality nonetheless) so why on Earth would anyone want to waste their time pondering questions they can’t possibly answer at that point?

My first post wasn’t meant to be so deep but if you know me you’d expect nothing less than a slightly intelligent post desired to make people reconsider how they view their life with the intent of bettering oneself for the future; though I think living in the moment is the right way to live, and it creates happier lives, I also believe to continue to ensure happiness for future moments you need to prepare for the future as best as possible.